Beauteous Rot

Ok, my new friends only journal is tomblilly. go add if you're interested in boring stuff I write about. Please don't take it personally if I can't add you to that page. It's more personal and I don't want anyone I'm not familiar with commenting and reading about my personal stuff. I already added some of you to that page. I'll keep this page around for a bit but I'm taking things off and I won't be making posts.

So if you like my photos. add sasphotos
If you like me personally and can relate with me add tomblilly

Sorry I don't have links, I'm not at my computer.

Ok, so it's time to get rid of this bloodlustwaltz journal. I'll be deleting it soon. There will be a page only for my photos (which is already up. The username is: sasphotos go add it) and a personal, friends only b/c I really need to keep things separate. The personal journal will be about my issues and dreams and stuff. I'm stuffing too much in and need to get things out, even if it's just typed out. I can't write in a book for fear it will be found. having it online and private makes me feel more secure. It sounds dumb but writing out my thoughts and keeping things organized is therapeutic for me. I've been in a really bad place in my mind and have to work on it and move on.
So add my photos page and keep in touch.
XOXOX

Not to be conceded but I wanna bang this photo. Of course I look nothing like this with no makeup and retouching. ::sighs::

Jana gave me this zebra top and I had to take pics.

I've been staying at Lori's while she's away on vacation and I love not being home with my parents. I also love taking a shower in a CLEAN bathroom most of all. My skin is even clearing up a bit. Yesterday I took a bunch of the clothes I was gonna throw out and sat on Bedford Ave. in Brooklyn and sold a bunch of shit. I made $17 which was pretty good for what I was selling. I'm gonna go back next weekend and try to sell the rest.

Ok, so I have to find an affordable and reliable e-mailing list host for Lori's website. I google mailing lists but I'm so confused with the whole thing. I'm hoping someone could push me in the right direction and send me links to a good mailing list and also a good e-mail host. Please someone help! I'm a retard when it comes to websites and e-mails.

Thanks! <3

I just want to be smooth. :) I'm sick of feeling like an awkward creep.

goodnight.

This is bullshit, I can't get my photos of Unity Fest day 1 off of Sean's laptop. I have all the photos from day 2 but most of them suck. I've been trying different things for 2 hours now and I don't have the time to sit and wait for things to load all night. I tried burning to a CD-R, a DVD-R, this other storage thing I have (which loaded maybe 20 photos last night), now it just keeps freezing. Not only am I worried I won't be able to get them transfered to my computer, but I also don't want to fuck up Sean's laptop (what's left of it).
These are the best photos out of the 2 days and I want to get them out to the bands and to the promoter. This fucking sucks balls. I really don't know what to do and I'm gonna be so pissed if I can't do anything to get them onto some other type of storage.

This is the 10th time I have to shut this thing down b/c it's frozen. I can't even look at any of the pictures. I'm gonna look like the biggest asshole if I can't these photos out to the promoter...

Any suggestions?

Unity fest was this weekend. I got some decent photos of the bands. Saturday was my better day there. Sunday I wanted to pass out and didn't want to talk to anyone, but I still got some good shots. I'll post some when I get a chance. There are over 400 photos of the 1st day on my boy's laptop and I'm trying to transfer all the pictures to my computer and it's seriously going to take me a few days. It's really pissing me off, his computer is way too slow.

My anxiety seems to be getting worse and being out in public is starting to make me sick.

That's all.

I think I got about 3 hours of sleep. It's so fucking hot in my room and I even had my fan on the highest level blowing directly on me and I was still hot. The fan was so high that my hair was going all over the place and was making me all itchy. I tried pulling my hair back but that was uncomfortable. I put on the AC around 5am and I almost felt comfortable enough to fall asleep but I was still very itchy and I got nowhere. I even took some pills. I slept for a few hours and then got up at noon and now I feel like throwing up and my leg muscles are killing me. But I had to go out and run errands, and I'm going dollar store shopping in a few hours. So no naps. Maybe I will sleep well tonight. I seriously need 5 fans blowing on me at night plus AC and sleeping pills in order to sleep at night. I'm sick of my body temp. being so high and I'm sick of these gay sleeping problems.
Time to finish laundry.
That's all.